miscalculate?

author's note:still got time left before i go to my next class so I'll tell something that happen on my public speaking class,meanwhile to update my blog also,hehe

the class start as usual,8 in the morning so i go there with my best-ol-friend with his motorbike,nothing happen,no event,nor anything excited happen,except that we went to the wrong direction,hah for the first time,haha

during the public speaking,lectures come and explain stuff bout speaking in public,but my point here is not in the class,its when the lecture's give us permission to rest for 5 minutes,but that five minutes of rest with my friends there has made me think for a while,and share with you

we were just talking bout bowling event,which whoever think he's good at it can represent our university in MASUM,before this I already read bout this bowling thing,and to represent my U and fight with other U as well,but i have a conflict inside myself,saying that am i capable enough?if i did good there,will i make a same result in MASUM?how can i have a consistence play?ca i bet 224 score?and lots of negative question flows in and never comes out,so i decided NOT to take any risk by taking form of aplication

i express my feeling to them,saying bout that kinda stuff,but they answer it really simple,"just play for fun lah,don't overthink la wei",that answer,well,makes me feel angry a bit because they were thinking it as a small matter,what i saw was if i get score 120,but the other U get 140++,will that result scratch my U name?but my friends add somemore,he said that im thinking too far,just go and try,if ok then it's fine,but if not then nevermind,i really want to slay that answer,but i stop and stood for a while

why am i keeping the negative inside me?why wouldn't i try to go there first?why didn't i take that chance?it's like im stoping myself to grab that chance that might never come back nex year,some people does think like this,they were thinking too much of obstacle and started to think failure WILL occur,but that is the fact,if you never fail you'll never learn,but some of us afraid to take RISK!but those who don't care bout it achieve SUCCESS!why do we must bother bout cannot reach higer target?is be number 1 so important?

in competition,wining is everything,but that doesn't mean losing will make you lose everything,but the EXPERIENCE is what makes both winner and losers get,so here,it is valuable to make us more matured in many ways,why put obstacle in,when you can put aside it and achieve gold?hence i agree to what they all said,just do it,doesn't matter what the result is

so it's already 5 minutes,we went back to our class,and i'm thinking bout this attitude of mine,and beginning to think how my friends were thinking,and share with you guys,so take the challenge,grab any chance that you can have,and get the experience in it!!